Wednesday, December 24, 2008 ; 5:13 PM
i never expected that spamming grey's anatomy drama serials would eventually come in useful.
i woke up at 7.30am this stormy morning. my sis and me were supposed to bring my wheelchair-bound grandma to the polyclinic to clean her wound after having amputated her toe last week. it was the first time we took care of grandma on our own. usually mummy is the one who brings her to the hospital periodically for more medicine. it wasn't easy maneuvering the wheelchair and the rain didn't help save the situation. but what was most difficult is to watch as they undid the dressing to reveal the amputated feet. and for the first time in my life, i was faced with raw flesh underneath the skin. it was horrible. my sis freaked out. but i just watched on, because one of us had to learn how to dress the wound. and it was heartbreaking when grandma moaned in pain.
maybe i won't understand her agony. but i can feel her insecurity and the constant need for my sis and me to be in her line of vision. not being able to walk about freely, to be confined in the house, time to her, holds little value as she watch and wishes for the day to pass by swiftly. i won't be able to withstand the loneliness. maybe it comes with the mentality of an old person, which makes it all less unbearable.
but amidst all that, there is at least one good thing for grandma, that grandpa is alive and well. and that for one, is a very fortunate thing indeed.
